Praise be to Allaah.
We praise Allah for opening your heart to Islam and filling
it with faith; we ask Him to make you steadfast and to help and guide you.
You are a Muslim now and you do not need to repeat the
Shahaadah. Even if we assume that the first time you said it, it was not
with full conviction of Islam, there is no doubt that you have said it many
times after you became fully convinced and accepted this great religion.
Your marriage that was done in January 2010 is a valid
We advise you to pray a great deal and read Qur’aan, because
these are among the greatest means of finding peace of mind. You should also
try to convince your husband of the importance of going to the mosque and
meeting Muslim women and looking for righteous friends who can help you in
righteousness and good. The husband does not have the right to prevent his
wife if she asks him for permission to go to the mosque, so long as she goes
out observing proper etiquette and shar‘i rulings, and her going out does
not result in any negative consequences or fitnah (temptation). That is
because of the report narrated by al-Bukhaari (900) and Muslim (442),
according to which the Prophet (blessings and peace of Allah be upon him)
said: “Do not prevent the female slaves of Allah from going to the mosques
For more details concerning that please see the answer to
question no. 49898.
You have done well to join a class on the Internet to study
tajweed, fiqh and Islamic history. This is making good use of time and
acquiring knowledge by means of which Allah raises people in status and
makes their deeds weigh heavily in the Balance.
You should remember that the believer will not be free of
trials which will erase his sins and raise him in status. So be patient and
seek reward with Allah, because what is with Allah of joy and blessing is
worth that and more.
We ask Allah to take away your pain and relieve you of
distress, and to grant you happiness in this world and the Hereafter.
And Allah knows best.